Oh, the phone calls I've made, the frustrating people I've dealt with, the delays and delays and delays.... (and the wonderfully easy folks who say sure, we'll work around that, no problem, we can do this, why don't I do it today?) It's not all bad, just felt that way today.
I'm tired. And want to settle in, not box everything up. I'd like to walk without a waddle and the inevitable need to pull my pants back on. (oh, dear maternity clothing makers, don't you know we already feel ridiculous at this stage, why can't you create something that stays up? And don't get me started on all the dresses with skirts above the knees. Hello, I can't keep my knees together when I sit.) Today, my ankles disappeared. Bye. Sniff.
My girls were grumpy messes today. It's fair. We're been off on bedtime, and distracted and that leads to less nice behavior. I know what I need to do- focus on their needs for a few days. But the movers are coming and so are my in laws and things just can't be like this and.... Dang it. I put them to bed early. One down, the other stayed up and up and up. I don't know why! I even took a nap while singing lullabies. Go to sleep, my sweet babies.
So pardon me while the days rush by, and I try to knock a little off this to do mountain. Next week, we'll be in the new house (without Internet, because that's to hard for the phone company to do in one fell swoop) and within another week, we'll be done done done with this house. Painted and listed and dear god, please let it sell quickly. And then I'll be full term, and then a new chaos will descend. Oh, did I tell you Grace told her sister about how hard it was when mommy went to the hospital? And how Joy said, no, mommy will stay at home. No. Mommy will stay at home. I'm coming with you!!! This crazy timing was NOT the plan. But, I guess upheaval is life. Just teaching my kids to go with it, right?
Pardon me if I'm absent for the next couple of weeks. Likely the baby has nothing to do with it. Just boxes and houses and paint and in laws (oh my!). Hope your January is flowing more calmly -
So much on your plate! I know that you aren't seeking sympathy or choruses of "you can do it!" So I want you to know that I'm thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteKids react to changes so dramatically (said slightly sarcastically). It's difficult, as parents, to recognize their emotional outbursts or lack of sleep for what it is, and yet you do such a great job. But, I also know how frustrating it is even if you are doing your best to be understanding. (Emily hasn't slept well in over 2 months and my patience for her monster fears has disappeared.)
I am crossing my fingers that your house sells quickly and that you will find some time to settle in before the next big change. Good luck, friend, I am sending all the positive thoughts I can your way.
Oh gosh, Kate, this is so much to handle all at once. I admire your honesty and your resolve and wish you good health, lots of patience, quick home sales, and maternity pants that stay up. (I swear, what is up - or should I say down - with those things???)
ReplyDeleteOh Kate! Thinking of you and hoping everything goes smoothly. Best of luck. Can't wait to meet your new baby :)
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